Meltrax, 1 year ago

I started therapy a year ago.

I enjoy walking my dog (usually) and sitting with my cat.

I spend way, way more time exercising than is normal or mentally healthy probably, but it’s been my coping mechanism for years and I leaned into it.

I try to invite friends over when people have time. It’s not often. I’m that age where people are starting to get married and have kids and move away.

I’m miserable most of the time. I try to ignore the shitty politics, the news, the cost of housing, the cost of food, the quicksand it feels like we are all slowly sinking into.

I’ve decided I’m never having kids. They don’t deserve to be forced to exist in this.

The only consolation I’ve found is an answer to a similar post to this on Reddit a couple years ago - someone in their 60s or so was explaining that for what it’s worth, the world is always on fire if you only focus on that part. They grew up in the cold war, doing bomb shelter drills and hearing how they were going to get nuked by Russia. The economy has its issues then. The government has its issues then. I think those issues are worse now, but honestly who knows. You have to look for moments of brightness and try to avoid focusing on the morass of terribleness that everyone is trying to shove down your throat. It’s not easy. But the alternative is worse.