I’m sorry to hear that and hope things pick up for you soon. Depression can turn your day-to-day into an unpleasant fog, compounding the difficulty of trying to problem-solve stuff that’s right in front of you, much less more complicated life stuff. It’s important to give yourself grace and patience while working to make incremental improvements. I hope you find your way through it, friend. It’s always hard, but always possible.
SC2 was what first brought me in too! I had never cared about esports or watching streams prior to that. Incontrol, Day9, Husky, and all the competitive stuff.
I practice too, but I still find it helpful to watch chess streamers talk through their thought process in the moment rather than reading/watching a structured lesson.