There is such a thing as abuse. Not everyone’s parents suck. Some beat their children, some love them. Sure, everyone hates their parents at some point, and it’s all relative. You’re making it sound like abusive parents don’t exist.
I’m really sorry to hear that. I truly believe that psychedelics contain a lot of hope for people like you, and it’s such a travesty that governments won’t allow any research or medical uses. Is there a way for you to travel to countries with less restrictive laws? Of course, it all costs money, including the treatment itself.