I’ve studied for years and got a well paying job, I cannot just switch to something else without cutting my pay in half. But my work isn’t enjoyable, it outright sucks on most days. Going to bed early surrenders the only time of the day I can be happy and skips right to work again.
What do you think I finance my happiness and wellbeing with? Having more ‘fun’ at work does not offset the new problems like worrying about rent or food. There is no happy middleground really, I mostly enjoy things that do not pay at all.
Sure we need money, but I personally always take a job that pay less but is fulfilling over a well paid one that makes me stressful / sad. At the end we spend most of the day working, it’s a matter of health.
That’s very true, but there’s something so blissful about those rare days I go to bed and wake up at like 2am and just kind of consciously drift in and out of a very light sleep for 5 hours. Just awake enough to think and relax, but not enough to stress over the upcoming day and responsibilities.
Any parent knows that you can’t go straight from doing-stuff to sleep; your brain needs some veg-out stuff to just process things. (I mean, I can sleep, but something unpleasant builds up if you don’t let decompression happen)
By the time I’ve left work, done grocery shopping, made dinner, cleaned up after dinner, done laundry etc, it’s already late, and I’ve had no me-time to just decompress. (especially when chores drag out longer the more tired I get…)
And apart from that, there’s a mixture of FOMO, resentment and just clawing-for-agency that makes me rebel against the only boundary I can shift, even though I’m the one that suffers for it.
The fact that I’d just stare at the ceiling till at least 23:00 EVEN THOUGH I WAKE UP AT 4:00 just to be tired the whole day as usual until the sudden energy boost around 18:00.
What’s the point of school starting at 7am?
The first class looks like this: Students sleeping on tables, teachers trying to not do the same, the only active group of people is the line at the coffee vending machine.
And the productivity remains greatly reduced for rest of the day.
1½ years ago it used to be 7:50. Apparently too late.
Meanwhile I recently seen a study that even 8:30 might be too early, and giving a new recommendation of 10am.
But it could be worse. I’ve heard from someone on Reddit that they start at 6am. What the fuck…
If I go to bed early, I have to get up and pee at some point during the night. And since it’s way too cold, I’ll usually lie awake for half and hour before I can actually get myself to leave the bed.
Hahaha, that’s exactly what I’m doing now! Lying here trying to get myself to get up out of my warm bed, into the cold, and go pee so I can lay back down.
It doesn’t help that this weather is painful hell on my joints & I keep waking up in an intense panic that leaves me super anxious for ages. Why must our bodies be the way they are!? I want a refund.
Hyperfixation on random topics. The other day I was so invested in the history of mobile phones that I stayed up until 2:30am by accident while researching useless info.
Yep. I could be reading a book and intending to finish the chapter I’m on and suddenly it’s 4 am and I’ve read 6 more chapters and about 100 pages to go so I might as well finish it. Also applies to watching a show or playing a game.
I’m typing this while waiting for my 3.9 years old to fall asleep (she was up extra late today) Then it’s time to get her 12 year old brother to bed. I can hear their mom wrangling the 9 and 10 year old brothers through the evening routine right now.
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