JustZ, 1 year ago

In my experience all procrastinating and avoidance can be traced to emotional reactions to whatever I’m thinking about the task.

Just like, how I conceptualize the task in my head.

The more significant the consequences, the more I naturally desire to avoid thinking about how much is at stake with the task. Like, maybe I’ve gotten wrapped up in thinking “wow, if I don’t get this task done, that proves I’m really a screw up.” So just thinking about what failure might mean puts my body into fight or flight, and one of the ways we naturally cope with that is avoidance. It feels like anxiety. It that case, I recognize now that I need to deliberately take time to think about what success on the task will mean for me.

That lessens my emotional reaction to negative thoughts about a task. One way to practice this that’s been helpful is whenever I think of a task I have to do, I try to follow it with a thought of why I have to do it, and what goal I will meet if I do it.

On the flip side, a lot of my avoidance and procrastination is really just prioritizing and being ambitious. Like, there really isn’t enough time in the day for me, and I accept that; so time I do spend relaxing or zoning does not need to make me feel any type of way about something productive I technically could be doing.

I’m further trying to condition my relax and zone out time as if it’s a consequence of doing something productive first. Like I get to actually enjoy that time if I’ve got something I easily direct my brain to if it starts in on me; talkin’ about, shut up brain, I can play Skyrim all afternoon, my inbox is empty, or I drafted that thing, or ran on the exercise bike. That shuts up my brain some.