I can start it now but it won’t get finished and it won’t get done right. I don’t think the same unless I’m under pressure. Pressure breeds perfection.
My brain literally only fully dials in when under stress. I become hyperfixated and very calm. The panic and adrenaline quiets all distraction. It’s very similar to the effect drugs like Adderall and Focalin (my favorite) have on the ADHD brain. Give normies Focalin and they’ll climb walls. Give them to me and I become very calm.
I was on old school Focalin, which was a smoother cousin of Ritalin (softer landing). They later released an XR version of Focalin because technically you could grind up the version I was on and abuse it. It was amazing. I was literally a different person. I booked millions of dollars of business on that shit. Unfortunately, it probably also contributed to my now chronic insomnia, hypertension, and other heart related issues. I got for stents installed at 45 even though I’m athletic, always active, and hadn’t had red meat in almost twenty years.
Executive Dysfunction [ADHDinos] (startrek.website)
It is insane how accurate this is yet utterly impossible for most neurotypicals to comprehend. I wish I wasn’t broken, dammit....