I’m really sorry to hear that. I truly believe that psychedelics contain a lot of hope for people like you, and it’s such a travesty that governments won’t allow any research or medical uses. Is there a way for you to travel to countries with less restrictive laws? Of course, it all costs money, including the treatment itself.
The 1990 remake of the Night of the Living Dead. I was like 10 when I saw it, and then I had to walk through a dark forest alone to get home (I was supposed to walk with older girls but they left me behind). I legitimately thought I was going to die.