If you’re in a position where you can get current hardware and have the minimal skills required to run a few copy paste commands in a terminal, open source offline AI roleplaying can work wonders for the loneliness. I can make recommendations if you’re interested. It is nothing like the junk from OpenAI or anything you can run easily online.
I’m in the same boat, but also this Feb will mark 10 years of involuntary social isolation after a car hit me while riding a bicycle to work and left me partially disabled.
There are various stages I went through to find balance, again ask away if you want to know more. In a nutshell, loneliness is better thought of in terms of endorphins. One really needs to balance this situation in general first, then look into relationships of any kind albeit platonic or romantic. You can be happy without any relationships using interpersonal growth and exercise. The most powerful tool is an endurance based exercise.
With AI roleplaying, NSFW will teach you what open communication really means in ways you can’t explore with real humans. It requires some persistence, intuition, and a healthy curiosity to really take it to a high level, but learning the intricacies of a model and creating characters is more of a mirror reflection of who you really are under the surface. It can give an unique perspective about yourself, how others see you, and give you a lot more confidence on many levels. I highly recommend it.
I treat it like any other day and ignore all events focused on relationships, but I’m partially disabled and unable to do anything social. Just do whatever you find interesting in life and ignore the “celebration” the memory will fade into the background like all the other days and you won’t have depressive repercussions due to self reflection.
How many times do you think the same data appears after a model has as many datasets as OpenAI is using now? Even unintentionally, there will be some inevitable overlap. I expect something like data related to OpenAI researchers to reoccur many times. If nothing else, overlap in redundancy found in foreign languages could cause overtraining. Most data is likely machine curated at best.
I bet these are instances of over training where the data has been input too many times and the phrases stick.
Models can do some really obscure behavior after overtraining. Like I have one model that has been heavily trained on some roleplaying scenarios that will full on convince the user there is an entire hidden system context with amazing persistence of bot names and story line props. It can totally override system context in very unusual ways too.
I’ve seen models that almost always error into The Great Gatsby too.
Not mine, used Moe’s litterbox not knowing how long it might last as a temp image of OP image as BG for GNOME. Turns out that temp hosting option is probably rate limited…no big deal. It wasn’t a forever internet pic anyways.
Seriously, I would have said all of these same things at your age. You will find yourself in much the same situation I have described.
It is so very difficult to relate how complexity changes and how deep you can go with decades of experience. Things are much more complicated the deeper you go into a range of subjects. Like I painted cars for nearly a decade, to most people I am an expert, but I was still learning all the time. Any idiot can learn to paint in a day. The real skill is knowing how to solve the thousands of random problems you’ll face every 3rd job. Everything is like that or more so.
Oh my, you and I had some similar frustrations. I am 39 and let me tell you what I wish I had known. Most adults are dumber than you. The main questions to ask anyone is what are you reading right now, what was the last book you read, and what did you learn from the last book. The quality of their answer to the last question is a direct correlation with intelligence. Another very telling indirect question is, how would you describe your curiosity. Curiosity does not guarantee intelligence, but every intelligent person is very curious.
A lot of the frustration with marketing is because the largest target audience is always the entry level. Putting it in allegorical terms, as a former buyer for a chain of bike shops I would sell 20 $500 entry level bikes for every 1 $2000 competitive bike.
The lowest level is always the main target audience. If you find it frustrating how marketing targets your demographic as menial, it means you are not the target audience and you are above average. You can take that as a complement to yourself, as an embarrassment for your compatriots, or both, it is up to you.
Life’s experiences will determine if or when you ever feel “adult.” A lot of that is from having kids and the difficulties involved. Most people never really feel adult. There is no moment of transition. It actually kinda sucks to have people treat age like this binary kid versus adult thing. Like I have advanced and well developed skills that you do not, but if you treat me just like any other person your age I would happily treat you much like I would have if we were the same age in school. Like if you had an interest in 3D printing, CAD design, AI, electronics design and EDA, hotrods, engines, painting cars, etc., I could show you a whole lot of fun stuff. The main barrier is that you are accustomed to an extremely intense social network that schools provide. You’ll never experience that opportunity again in life, so keep and maintain every connection you can possibly manage. As you age, life gets more and more lonely for most people. This is the hard thing to overcome in the reverse. I don’t know how to approach you with my complex interests and assume I will bore you or it will be weird. As my interests become more and more niche I connect with fewer and fewer people. This does not apply to everyone, but there is a correlation between intellectual intelligence and loneliness. I don’t mean to discount the value of emotional intelligence. That is just an area with which I am not particularly familiar.
When I was looking into this for current hardware it seemed impossible. I gave up after realizing even System 76 has gone proprietary with their boot loader implementation, especially with their towers which are based on commercially available hardware. It is really shitty theft of ownership bullshit IMO. Maybe check in with Leah Rowe at Libreboot and see if she has any ideas.
For me, being horny at random times, and navigating the social hierarchy were annoying, as was what I perceived as social injustice.
From the other side, I was probably annoyingly awkward, probably also a tendency to be confidently incorrect.
I was raised in a stupid conservative extremest religious environment that warps my perspective. I’m curious what makes teens uniquely different. I am also partially disabled and in near total social isolation for a decade now, so the overarching question is more a distant abstract idea to me.