I googled it, results vary from 250k to 500k, so not quite a million but still, that’s a lot of deaths. Either way, the US government’s real reason for that war was not to save the country from dictatorship …
openpathcollective.org provides a long list of therapists that work on an affordable, sliding scale. I know it’s just a meme, but if you think you would benefit in any way, please seek support for your mental health