I’ve often stated that Past-Me is always hassling Present-Me with reminders of things I’m supposed to do. That asshole just loves setting a ton of notifications to fire throughout the day, making me feel bad for being a lazy procrastinator.
I have gradually turned myself into a more compassionate person by deliberately working on managing my emotions. I’m a lot less angry and far more open minded than me of ten years ago. There’s hope if you really want it.
My office, for one. But you prolly mean by government. Crossing the border in Canada led to the trucker thing. To be clear, I got my third booster last month. I’m pro-vax.
Had a similar thing when our internet and phones went out in a retail store. We processed cash transactions for as long as we could before closing a couple hours early. Asshole stuck his foot in the door when the manager was trying to explain why he couldn’t come in, demanding that we let him shop. He was clearly drunk, to boot. Ugh.
An unhoused woman recently asked me if I’d buy her some food at a fast food joint. I said ok because I think I have a moral obligation to help anyone who asks for food if I can afford to. She ordered the largest multi-item meal they offered (think bucket of chicken). The person ringing it up offered to do a smaller combo, but I said fuck it and let her get the largest. I figured she might have people to feed other than herself and it’s not like I couldn’t afford to let her indulge.
The reason I’m proud on this is because I changed myself into this compassionate person where once there was an angry person filled with hate. This is the product of years of therapy and deliberate self-work. I’m also proud of finally being able to love myself. That happened in 2019-2020.
Holy fuck, I’m sorry for your situation. I undoubtedly know someone who thinks this way; I’m just unaware of anyone who does. Six openly sharing such beliefs is alarming.
Think of three things for which you are grateful every day. I’ve been trying to get back into this mode after I’d used it for years and fell off. Example:
Got to have a nice dinner party with friends on NYE
Kitty has become a lot less anxious around strangers
Though it’ll rain later today, it won’t be raining when I go to work
I get that not everyone has extra cash to spend. I’m very fortunate to be able to throw $10 at a problem. I don’t begrudge you if you need to save cash (I have no kids to raise, for example). But I think $10 is fair if you search a bunch. Maybe I’m overvaluing it; I have heard great things about Kagi, but I’m still fucking around on Google cause it’s “good enough,” even though it’s in great decline. Fuck it, I’m a hypocrite.
It’s far lamer to shoehorn in a long sex scene that doesn’t make sense. See sex in Sopranos, as I mentioned. It’s not overdone. It happens and we move on.
I doubt that’s true, but it’s the type of thing that I wouldn’t test. It could certainly come up in a future case, though.
I bought mine second-hand with cash, from a classmate. Dunno what ever happened to it. Read that a lot of the info was deliberately more dangerous to cause harm to would-be radicals. That’s probably also bullshit. More likely the author just made mistakes.