No one in the neighborhood set off midnight fireworks this year, so that was nice. Got a few last minute plant orders that I’ll be shipping out tomorrow, which feels like a great start for the year. My wife had to put in some wfh hours to process pre-authorizations for the new year so this morning was spent trying to finalize my GDQ prize submission (way too close to the deadline on this one).
My 2 cats have finally started playing! One is like 6, the other a kitten, and they’re both good and friendly cats and were just taking time to warm up to each other. I heard growling and expected a fight, but saw them on the floor playfully tussling! they’d get up, chase each other, tussle a bit more… I had a royal bastard of a cat for the longest time, and am happy to finally have cats capable of being friends! Fingers crossed that they cuddle properly in the future.
Holidays are going well. Visited NYC but spent more money than I expected, though. Also spent some time with my relatives, which was nice. Will be heading back to work for new year’s Eve, but that’s fine. Overall, it was a nice and fun trip.
It’s been mostly good. Sadly, my parents could not come because the consulate could not issue their visas on time, but we made the best out of what we had. I’ve now been resting at my sister’s place, and it’s been such a pleasant surprise. We had not lived together since she was 8(she’s 20 now), so it has been quite the experience for both of us. I’m flying back home tomorrow, and I’m already planning a return trip. I needed this break. I feel I could finally stop and take a breath of confidence and self-control. I haven’t had any depressing thoughts, and, more importantly, I feel like I was finally able to let go of some of the ghosts that have been haunting me this year. It was excruciating, but I’m happy I did it. I feel confident they won’t be coming back anymore to torture and taunt me. So, I feel I can finally start a new era in my life and move forward, one step at a time. Let’s hope I can keep the positivity. At least, for now, I think I got this and 2024 can bring it. :)
Overall it’s honestly been a really good Christmas. I’ve never enjoyed this time of year because of the family stress and financial obligations (re: family stress) but my partner made it pretty incredible this year. I won’t lie and I hate to be negative ,but I’m kind of in awe and scared that something horrible is going to break this winning streak.
I don’t have many words of comfort, but I will say this: Even if when you look around you, it seems empty - that does not mean you are alone!
Conversely the same applies for me in my case, I’m supposed to have some family members around me for Christmas… and yet I feel much more disconnected and alone now than I ever have.
Logically, I know that my brain is just playing tricks on me. I have friends who truly care about me, and a few family members who do. But my siblings who are coming to visit us? They pretend to care (at least from my perspective), yet I doubt they do. I’ve heard from others the thoughts they have about me, and it’s really sad to hear.
Unfortunately, the heart often does not follow logic. I can’t help but feel how I do. The only thing I can do is just as I have, which is continuing to push on as hard as I can - some days I don’t make any progress and it feels like I’m frozen in a single frame of the timeline… But I live for the days where the bad fades away, even if only briefly.
So it’s not much, I know, but I will be thinking of you and the rest of my friends here at the Fediverse (and my personal friends of course) throughout the holidays! Some days the road is dark, but you’ll never have to walk it alone.
You can appeal this bogus appeal outcome; but prepare to go to battle on Twitter with TeamYoutube and don’t expect to win…unless you can prove your channel was either “more official”, “not claiming to be official”, or "Not Official, not claiming to be, and you started your channel before they started theirs.
Most of the time it’s not worth the effort unless you have overwhelming evidence.
Woke up. Got out of bed. Dragged a comb across my head…saw water damage in a room. Had a cup, noting I’d be late chugga chug chug Saw a pipe spraying water out my wall.
So I got that going for me, which is nice.
Otherwise, not too shabby. Thanks for sharing everyone and hope you have a good week this week. Remember, even when shit hits the fan there are still people that care about you. Even digital strangers with water shooting out of places water should not shoot from.
Keep at it! It took me being ghosted a trillion times and having my heart broken after a second interview to finally find my current position. I believe in you. :)
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