If we make it to 24 that’d be 8 years of dating and id feel bad not marrying her by then. My only caveat is I want to be out of college by the time we marry tbh
I’ll probably still go to grad school but I’d atleast like my BS
I don’t ever remember my dreams for longer than an hour but I do know that they are often incredibly surreal. Afaik I haven’t looked in a mirror but it doesn’t sound pleasant. They’ve always made me uncomfortable even sober. Passing by mirrors at night as a kid was always a very stressful experience
You are nearly powerless as an individual yes, but you still have some influence on the world around you. Using it alone at your own whims maybe you can affect the people closest to you and make their lives better but as a collective you can expand that sphere of influence to a vast extent, even globally.
Western society is designed to isolate you, it’s a sprawling expanse of concrete with no where for you to go that doesn’t cost money. We primarily live in single family homes and that is often legally required due to our districting. we wake up, we go to work surrounded by people we often don’t actually connect with because deep down we still know they are our competition, maybe we go out and spend time with what friends we might have retained this far if it’s a weekend and we aren’t too exhausted, maybe we stay inside and busy ourselves with some hobby or mindlessly consume some media, then we do it again. Over and over and over and over.
How are you meant to organize if you barely even know anyone outside a small friend group? If you don’t have a car? If you’re exhausted from rediculous work hours and broke from shitty pay? You certainly won’t organize if you’re pumped full of the most dopamine rich meaningless slop corporate can come up with. Not if there is no sense of community where you live because existing outside cost money and everyone is so far away you don’t even know who your neighbors are.
But you do it anyway. Because the struggle is not meaningless, because you wouldn’t want them to look the other way when you’re left to rot, because you want change.
It’s normal to feel overwhelmed by the horrors of the world when you have no one to lean on and you don’t have any idea of how you might help. You are meant to feel that way because the more powerless you feel the easier you are to exploit