At the end of last year all I had was hope and patience. Through sheer luck and the kindness of complete strangers my living situation has finally stabilized.
The things that happened last year really did a number on me and now it takes time to recover once again. Sometimes I wonder if we’ll ever have a society where it is ok to be human.
Luckily I don’t drink or anything like that but it’s seemingly near impossible to get my arse into first gear to take care of the few responsibilities that I have.
Fortunately I’ve learned to take care of the basics like eating healthy, sleeping well, making friends, and knowing that through it all, even on the worst of days, that things will eventually improve. That it’s all worth it.
I just hope my client can find that final bit of patience, as I honestly don’t know what to tell them any more. I feel terrible about it, but also I want and need to work and so they’re kinda stuck with this situation too. All I can hope for is that when things start moving again that I can work multiple days per week. That would solve the issues for everyone involved.
Is there some sort of twist that makes it more fun further in? Got halfway through the first Gentleman Bastard and had to give up because I just couldn’t care less.
I didn’t loathe it like I did with the Kingslayer Chronicle (also DNF), but it’s one of a select trio of books that I just couldn’t finish, out of some 200 books I’ve read the post 4 years (Jo Nesbø’s “The Bat” being the third).
It has been great! First holiday season away from my family as a newly minted expat, but I’m lucky to have four/five other couples from my home country going through pretty much the same thing, so we’ve been each others support . Me and my partner are positively surprised at how well things have been working (mostly)!
Happy holidays, everyone :) I’m spending it sick with COVID. Please stay safe and get the latest vaccination as soon as possible to protect yourself and others.
I am back home from groove cruise and had my first full night of sleep in over a week. It was honestly one of the best experiences in my life. I have a lot of thoughts on how to improve my next go at it (sleeping arrangements are top of this list), but like my first EDC it’s extremely clear to me that I want to do this most likely every year for as long as they are still doing this.
With all that being said, my shoulder is wrecked (and I need to spend a few hours on the line with insurance and billing to clear a multi month issue with coverage on getting the damn implant placed again), I still don’t quite have my land legs back, I’ve been feeling like I’m maybe getting sick for the last two days, I’m nauseous looking at my phone and typing this up right now, and my body is exhausted (averaged 60k steps and about 2.5k activity calories per day on the cruise). But amidst all that I have to say that my mood is excellent, I’m feeling a huge amount of gratitude to have had that experience and I’m feeling very loved and positive about the communities and people I’ve chosen in my life.
I’m American and yesterday I realized I made a mistake on my taxes less than an hour after I filed them. Some googling told me it’s not a huge deal, just have to file an amended tax return after my initial one is accepted but I can’t ignore it because the IRS will know I did it wrong because they will have received a form from another party with the numbers I forgot to put in. It’s baffling to me why it’s a weird negotiation to pay taxes instead of them just telling me what I owe since they do know what I owe.
While I have my W-2 and a bunch of 1099s and 1098s from various banks, I’m still waiting on a few more things. But yeah, definitely silly that I have to gather these forms, tabulate them in the 1040, and technically send them off to the IRS, when these banks have also filed these with the government already. Electronic filing or not, it’s annoying. It doesn’t take me long to do my taxes, maybe like 1-2hrs (and admittedly I use H&R Block via the IRS’ Free File program), but still. So stupid.
The IRS is trialing a “Direct File” system this year, but it’s not open to everyone. Hopefully that turns out alright. I know that still requires people to file in the first place, but I still think it’ll eventually get us to a point where the government “files for us” and we simply confirm the amounts. Anything that removes the influence of the proprietary tax software companies is a plus in my book.
It’s been a busy week so far. Trying to tidy my flat before an inspection next week as well as get some reporting done before a deadline tomorrow (it won’t be done in time but their expectations aren’t particularly reasonable so doing what I can). Got to do a Hackathon today based around a potential new system which was exciting! It’s so much better than what we have at the moment.
Going to Amsterdam on Friday for the weekend, really looking forward to it
Hopeful, I did well at piano lessons, I am meeting my new neurologist tomorrow (scared, but I will make it), I think I am sleeping better. Things might be looking up after tomorrow I might get some answers or some relief soon! So my week is hopeful!
Quick update, went to the neurologist, she recommended 2 new medications, my cardiologist said no to one and my insurance is trying to not cover the other, I am still full of hope, but need some pep talk. LOL
Ah, the age-old tale of insurance trying to skimp on covering medications. My doctor once tried to give me Modafinil (a very gentle stimulant) for mild narcolepsy. Insurance said no, and that they wanted her to try two lesser acting medications first (there aren’t any). So, she prescribed Adderall, and they insta-accepted it. Flawless logic!
As for a pep-talk: I have no wisdom, but I believe in you.
My brain is not functioning well right now and that is the pep-talk I need, being reminded this isn’t personal and just the really crap way insurance works here in the USA.
I am disappointed but the hope was for relief not for lifesaving actions, so I will deal, I have had this problem for a while it is not like I can’t survive it.
I had to teach myself last year that you can be an informed voter and also not constantly not watch the news. With Ukraine I realized I was constantly in a rolling panic attack and I couldn’t get out of it. The news was sensationalized so much. (Not downplaying the events, but they also rolled out experts who talked about how likely nuclear annihilation was and I was not handling that well). I realized it was all to keep me glued to my screen and clicking, and that made me kind of disgusted with them. Here’s a war going on with actual people affected, and they’re worried about how many clicks they’re getting.
I stay informed, I know the issues, but that doesn’t mean I need to be subscribed to /c/news and have a constant feed. I vote in every election, and if there’s something I don’t know I look it up. But I don’t need it daily.
experts who talked about how likely nuclear annihilation was
If it helps, the actual likelihood is about 0%. There are not enough nukes to kill even 99% of the current world population, much less a 100%… they could be built, but it makes no sense, for now.
Unless you live in Russia. They’re all talk about nuclear strikes, but in reality Russia is the one who doesn’t seem to have effective anti-ICBM measures.
On the off chance that the world doesn’t end this week, let’s go ahead and keep living our lives
It was a joke but it stuck with me. Yeah it could all end. History says it won’t though. There are some real threats out there, but for my own measley self I should keep planning on tomorrow
For me, definitely. I’ll read the news before an election but even then it’s pretty targeted.
I realized that I trip up with anxiety with world and national news because there’s nothing I can do. Literally beyond voting there’s really no change I can make, so I don’t need to stay updated like I can do that.
Even our grandfather’s only had a daily newspaper to stay up to date. We humans just aren’t meant to consume that much, there’s no way our tiny soup brains can consume all of that and we stay mentally healthy
Pretty good start to my week, started talking to a girl on bumble on Saturday that is way outta my league that matched with me first, we’re gonna meet up on Sunday and walk my dog and chat.
She is so fucking adorable though it’s unbeliveable, she’s asexual however which may be an issue if we go into any actual relationship as sex is reasonably important to me (I think) but it depends on exactly what type of asexual person she is and her personal feelings/desires on it, I’m wondering when the best time to ask her that would be…
I brought it up and she’s totally asexual, not interested in anything of a sexual nature at all which sucks (and I feel bad for feeling that tbh since it’s just who she is), but I’m still interested in her enough to explore things with her despite that, and she is as well (i asked). Thankfully she is very open about it.
This week went from bad, I wasn’t feeling well couldn’t find any energy was getting back into depression, to worse, my favorite all time uncle passed away last night. I am not dealing well. He was one of those weird, quite a lot, offbeat people that kind of got me, no one else liked him much. Now I feel like when I talk about how much I love home it makes me even more of an outsider. Also he is so far away I can’t go to his friends and his circle and be with other people that love him too.
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