LegionEris

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Leading a one woman branch of the Erisian Liberation Front! In love with almost everything all the time.

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LegionEris,

You ever watch The Sopranos? Carm loves that violent manchild with all her heart for a series of concerning reasons. It’s not exactly what you were asking, but I’ve been rewatching the show, and your question made me think of Carm crying about the portrait of the baby Jesus.

LegionEris,

Usually there’s an aspect of embodying the good things associated with your place and culture. I wasn’t allowed a sense of pride as a child and never grew to understand it. But if I did have a normal sense of pride, one might say that my love of southern food and country music and disdain for shoes was a form of southern pride. Hell, I am getting the hang of being proud to represent those things without bringing the usual baggages of southern culture. See, being born in a place or of a race isn’t just a thing that happens to you. It’s a life you live. It’s a culture that is built into your foundation. There is no going back or starting over. It’s part of you forever. And you can take inherent pride in who you are, in the things you do, in the mark you leave on the world and people around you. You can be self satisfied to have created a good life and a stable person from the culture and community in which you were raised.

LegionEris,

There is a very real chance that mine is the only one in the city. It’s right in the middle of the city by the bigger college. North side might have a few walkable areas in theory, but it also has dangerous areas you wouldnt always want to walk through. South side is strung out retail and commercial spaces, several minutes drive to anything, poor pedestrian infrastructure. I’m in a sweet spot.

LegionEris,

I don’t follow any sort of strict system or monitoring. I just try to have vitamins, fats, fiber, and protein in every meal I can. Mostly I work hard to get enough calories in. I lead an active life, often walking to and from my relatively active job. I have a fast metabolism, but my Welbutrin slows down food processing in my body. I’m a perfect storm of calorie deficiency. I can basically guarantee that I’m going to burn more calories than I take in any day that I work. I usually stock up on relatively healthy snacks and give in to the munchies when I’m off work. I’ll have a whole second small meal of yogurt and cereal with peanut butter as dessert after dinner. And then I’ll spend the next day out walking half the damn day because of my wonderful walkable neighborhood x_x

LegionEris,

Literally none of the things you listed here count as modifying your body? As a reply to “nobody should have to arbitrarily change their body for their employer,” “sometimes there are practical clothing and equipment requirements” is practically a non-sequitur.

LegionEris,

I guess piano, because I got a free piano off the streets. I could look up videos and lessons, but I’m kind of self conscious about practicing on a real whole god damn piano in an apartment building with neighbors in every direction. I also just don’t like to make a lot of noise. I should price an electronic keyboard I can pair with Bluetooth headphones to practice in perfect silence and privacy sometimes.

LegionEris,

Oh god so many I could ruin this post. Music is my most important processing art, and many of the musicians I listen to are very important to me. So I’ll limit myself:

“We took a weekend, drove to Provo.

The snow was white and fluffy.

A weekend in Utah won’t fix what’s wrong with us

The grey sky was vast and real cryptic above me.”

The Mountain Goats ~ The Mess Inside.

Because the work to get better and overcome truama isn’t easy or short. I’ve done a lot of wonderful things with my wife, and we’ve both come incredibly far from our truamas. But most of the nice things we’ve done had very little impact on that recovery. To paraphrase a Ray Ramano bit from SNL, you’re still gonna be you in Italy.

“I don’t fall in love, I plummet.” ~Ashley Virginia ~I Don’t Fall in Love

“You can’t stay everywhere you leave a piece of your heart.” ~Little Mazarn ~Vermont

These two go together. I fall in love–with people, places, things, experiences–with abandon. I can be slow to let things in, especially people, because once I do it is quickly a no holds barred environment. It’s what the Uhaul key on my necklace means. Because of that, I can’t stay everywhere or keep everyone I love. I have to know when and what to let go, when and where to hold on.

Finally I guess I’m gonna wholly belie all notions of brevity with a whole god damn Diane Cluck song:

"Somethin’ loosened around my heart

From where it was bound, it fluttered around

This funny motion first mistaken as attack

I realize and step back

With real eyes, I step back

And let it happen

Knitted so snug inside my chest

Iron lungs, ribs as rungs

Those who care to try and climb me

Sometimes say it’s hard to find me

Still, in reflex, I would shout

When I began spilling out

Weeping clearly as a blister

“Hey, I’m here, " you almost missed her

And I have so much for you (Na-na-na-na-na-na)

Do you know how I get shy to show you?

I fill up, tender, with a glow (Na-na-na-na-na-na)

Fluff and puff as I try to show you

Display my falling feathers

As they leave me in this weather

The days, they go so quickly

Can’t even stop them

Don’t even want to”

Diane Cluck ~Heartloose

I usually have to listen to this song twice. It’s so short, but so dense. Every bit of it shakes me. I don’t have time to enumerate the ways this song applies, appeals, affects, and relates to me. Diane Cluck is so important to me.

LegionEris,

There is a deep, deep love for Springsteen in Americana and country. Elizabeth Moen does whole Springsteen shows dressed up like him and everything. Anyone who doesn’t see the depth in his lyrics isn’t looking. And Little Mazarn is probably my favorite band. I prefer their original songs, but awkward banjo girl and Jeff with the singing saw are a religious experience for me.

LegionEris,

You ever heat the Little Mazarn version of that song? Lindsey Verril just breaks me.

LegionEris,

East Coast Its isn’t any kind of serialized or contiguous, but it is free and great. On the opposite end of the spectrum, here’s a free unofficial translation of One Punch Man, which is highly serialized and contiguous.

LegionEris,

Can’t replay embarrassing memories from your childhood if most of your childhood is truama fog! jabs head with pointer finger with aggression

LegionEris,

This is fascinating. Assuming he follows the law of the land per the Bible (per my minimal understanding of the Bible…) he would be sinning to note vote. So the pope most likely voted by absentee ballot in Argentina, but also likely has diplomatic immunity in Argentina, and therefore could not be prosecuted for failure to vote.

LegionEris,

On a global scale they are synonyms xd

LegionEris,

Oh I definitely need some strife. It can just be me vs situation like my current position trying to run an efficient dispensary, but I need the challenge way more than the perception of earning or owning. I gotta be solving problems and completing tasks. I can’t live idly.

LegionEris,

I have so many questions for and about bacteria. Can I choose a sort of akashic universal bacterial conscious? I could pick a family or something if I have to be more specific, but I nerd to know about bacteria.

LegionEris,

You gotta do a secretory vesicle turn (looks like the open one!) where you swerve wildly off the road, circle around, blaze directly across the street at a right angle, then circle back onto the road heading the other direction. No stopping, no entering, and it’s technically not a U-turn.

LegionEris,

It’s the shape my brain drew as I read those signs. It follows all the rules!

LegionEris,

PDFs are trusted and respected around the world. It’s a better denomination than most.

LegionEris,

It’s an alternative user interface.

LegionEris,

My actual high school experience. I enjoy math these days. When I was expected to learn and demonstrate it, I was an unstable teenager unsure if I hated myself or my parents more. (Spoiler alert: it was my parents >_>) Doing math made me slow down and make space in my head, which let out all the dead Hanks and Deans allowed the TRUAMA to flood in.

LegionEris,

Well obviously. We’d smell the onions if they were just inside of our noses and all around us in crowds. It must be a gourd or something with a lower scent profile.

LegionEris,

I’m probably in line for a promotion to management, and this is something on my radar. The GM genuinely doesn’t believe in people coming in sick and will herself be the extra work or hands needed to replace them. I’m the same way. But the example she sets is having Lupus and being some kind of unwell too often to never be sick at work. The other manager, recently promoted, is frustrated by the fact that we legitimately have people who don’t take care of themselves and take advantage of our relatively lax on time and attendance policy. But she’s a good friend of mine who I think can be inspired to grow and move past that, especially if we could manage to filter out a few problem employees. The advent of rec market realities has shaken out several people already, including three out of four members of the management team. It’s just not the job it was a year ago.

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