Being awake at night is a very nice time of peace. No responsibilities, noone wants something from you, you can just be in the crushing silence of your own thoughts
Having three kids, I get this sometimes. After bedtime is usually the first real chance I have to be alone in the day, so I don’t get any “Me” time until like 9 or 10 at night, and by that point I’m so exhausted, but maybe there’s something I’ve been wanting to get to all day I just don’t want to sleep. Other times I’m so wiped out I just let sleep take over, then do the whole thing all over again the next day.
I feel this, but it’s only one kid for me. Three must be insane. Most days I look forward to something intended to occupy that free time, but like you I’m always wiped or experiencing a headache by 8pm or later. So I’ve gotten back into reading. Low energy, comfy, can do it on bed. Except now I open the book and am nodding off between sentences. Falling asleep easier than ever, but doomed nonetheless.
This is me, but I don’t have any kids. I’m just tired and one thing I’ve been wanting to do will gain priority over the other: e.g. play a game/do something productive around the house etc., OR try to sleep. More often than not I decide to use the time trying to sleep which translates into watching a few hours of IASIP in bed. I believe that’s Michael Scott’s win win win scenario, right??
Work culture is being tuned to the point that everyone is miserable in it except those that find the work itself to be pleasure in a “hustlegrind sigma mindset” culty way.
I better not play games else I won’t get to bed until 4am. I’ll watch YouTube/tiktok instead because it has lots of stopping points and I can pause it.
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